Deviation Actions
Vik and I have split. I am writing this because I need to vent somewhere, and I honestly still love and care for him so much I don't want to announce it anywhere else. I am doing it here because no one knows us in real life, so there can't be any biased comments/opinions.
But I am just gone right now. I know this is the right thing for us to do. We both deserve to be happy, and it is clear that we are never going to be happy as a couple. It rips me apart inside. But my heart tells me that as much as it hurts, this is what's right.
The good thing is that it is completely mutual and Vik has been absolutely wonderful about the situation. He is completely supportive and wants to keep things friendly and civil between us. And of course, we are both still going to raise Lily together, just as separate people living separate lives, I guess.
Ok, I can't even lie, this fucking sucks. I feel like I am the reason why we didn't work out. I feel like I am impossible to have a relationship with. I feel like I don't deserve a good man. I feel like I am going to be alone forever.
Where do I go from here?
Yeah, you know.. fun stuff.
Waldo Canyon Fire
Colorado is Burning
Wow!
It's an old post so not sure if you're still active, but as an ex-bf from a long time ago (gosh, must be the better part of 16 years ago) that happened to recognize your profile pic while scrolling through my feed, I just wanted to leave a note after reading this. And yes, I had to snoop... forgive me? I'm sorry you had to deal with this and I hope you've found peace and joy in life since. Though our time together was short, I have always felt that you were the one got away. After our relationship ended, I quickly realized that you set a standard that future women would have to meet in order for me to want to pursue a long term relationship. When you say you're unlovable that just doesn't sit right with me. During our time together I found you quite loveable. In fact, I was developing very strong feelings toward you. To this day, you still cross my mind from time to time and it's always happy memories. I regret a lot of my decisions in life with my other exes, but I would not go back change anything about our time together other than maybe me being more mature. In all seriousness, I'm a better person today because of you. You helped me see what I wanted in a life partner and in turn, I learned what I needed to be for that person.
I wish you all the best Jessica.