Destiny?I wish you could see what you are to meThere is no one on this earth quite like youYouve reached into the deepest parts of my soulAnd shown me how alive I could truly be after feelingSedated for so long I thought Id never see the light againI wish you would not fear what you feel for meWeve both been hurt before; lets not pretend otherwiseOur hearts and dreams have been trampled countless timesSo why are we still here? What really brought us both togetherAfter all these years, the history we had..Back five years ago you and I were caught in moments of passionIt was simple, exciting, invigorating
we both felt so freeNothing could stop us and no force or entity could steal those momentsI thought it all would remain a distant dreamI thought Id never see you againBut here you are right in front of me and those nearly forgotten memoriesCome streaming and pouring in from all directions as I struggleTo maintain composure and some sense of sa
Driven to DestructionI feel so completely washed outNot myself anymoreNo matter how hard I try
I cant win.Detached from the worldLost inside myselfMisery consumes meAs I slowly drift awayI dont fight it anymoreThose efforts always prove vainIve forgotten how it feelsTo be truly happyI keep telling myselfThings can only go up from hereMy family laughs heartily in the backgroundAs I slowly lose my grip of realityIm at my breaking pointIt has become a struggleTo make it through a single day soberSo I drink into oblivionOr float on faded dreams of utopiaThe weight of my burdensHas grown too heavy to carryIve lost the willingness to tryId rather cast it all asideHow much longer can I standBefore my knees finally buckleAnd I collapse into nothingBut a hollow gaping void?
Dearest LoveHow could I have allowed myself to fallSo desperately in love with you in only a matter of months?I am in over my head as though a fish without water,Unable to resurface and catch my breathYou left me here to drown without a moments hesitationAnd I cant help but wonder,Was this your heartless plan all along?If so, then why did you insist on dragging meAlong behind you on your little string?You cast out the line; I grabbed a hold and clung on tightAs you slowly reeled me in. You kept reeling me in until I was yoursMy heart belonged to you more than anyone else in ages.How could I have let this be so?Have I been walking and living blindly these last few months?Now I am left alone, once againShivering in the dark, devoid of any answers to the countless questionsRunning through my headDid I do something wrong? Am I not enough?Have you found someone better?I am grieving ever so deeply over you, my love.How could I have let this be so?I fell too ha
Claim to FameTroubled labored breathingTrembling, shakingTears cascade and streamDown my face with relentless furyWhere do I even begin?What words could ever describeThe way I feel at this very moment?I feel I've said it and seen it all beforeUntil moments ago I learnedOf another mass shootingBy yet another troubled CHILD.For the second time this yearA CHILD opened up rounds and roundsUpon innocent victimsWith claims of fame as their motiveBarely three weeks before ChristmasMy heart aches and pours out sympathy to these grieving familiesSeeking solice and answers to why their loved ones were stripped away from themAnd instead what faces them is the excruciating truthThat the death of their loved ones was merely a game.The lives lost to the sole purpose of satisfying another's sick pleasures.I pray for these victims and their familiesThat somehow they will rest knowing that by some miracleTheir loved ones were not killed in vain.The answers may remain unclear until the distan
CorruptionI am sickened at what the world has becomePerversions of mind and soulCorruption surrounds meI cannot take any more of itWhat has the world become?What led us to this downward spiralWe all seem to be trapped in?Aside from my own imperfections, mistakesAnd insecurities that cause me griefAny pain felt from these indiscretionsUncomparable to the sorrow I feel;My grief over the world's sufferingNothing could have prepared me for thisI feel so utterly shocked when I sit backAnd dwell on what disturbs me about this life.I feel like society as a whole needs a massive electricutionA shock to the brains of the massesAnd the corruption that has dissensitized usWhen will we wake the FUCK up and make a change?Is change inevitable or avoidable?Will we as society eventually right ourselves and our moralsTaking whatever extreme measures necessaryTo better our lives and our pathetic little existence?Or will we continue to live blindlyAvoiding whatever truths we fear so despera