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Silence deafens
It screams at me from blank walls so I fill them with photographs
So they’ll seem less empty, and so will I

Silence welcomes
When the world is just too loud and too chaotic and too restless
And all I want in this moment is quiet

Silence echoes
From the depths of the empty beer bottles that line my bedside table
They promised fulfillment or at least escape the night before

Silence lies
It tells me that I am not good enough for a house filled with love
The kind that comes from the heart of a man

Silence comes
The moment I lay my child’s sleepy head to rest and surround her with pillows
So that she may never know what an empty space beside her feels like

Silence stays
Creeping alongside me even as I converse with family, friends, could-be lovers
Promising that at the end of the night, it will be the only one to hold me

Silence hopes
For the kind of intimacy that isn’t fleeting, isn’t built purely on lust and sexual conquest
But one that holds the broken parts of me and still thinks I'm beautiful

Silence fears
That even if such a love existed I’d be too blind to recognize it
Having been so painfully misled by all the lies and betrayals of the past


I would be too blind to see that, maybe, this one is real.
Maybe this one, finally, will put the silence to rest.

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You know what? Fuck life. I feel like I've been kicked in the gut over and over and over and this asshole is standing over me just laughing maniacally as he kicks the ever-living shit out of me. I've been flattened by a steamroller.

Vik and I have split. I am writing this because I need to vent somewhere, and I honestly still love and care for him so much I don't want to announce it anywhere else. I am doing it here because no one knows us in real life, so there can't be any biased comments/opinions.

But I am just gone right now. I know this is the right thing for us to do. We both deserve to be happy, and it is clear that we are never going to be happy as a couple. It rips me apart inside. But my heart tells me that as much as it hurts, this is what's right.

The good thing is that it is completely mutual and Vik has been absolutely wonderful about the situation. He is completely supportive and wants to keep things friendly and civil between us. And of course, we are both still going to raise Lily together, just as separate people living separate lives, I guess.

Ok, I can't even lie, this fucking sucks. I feel like I am the reason why we didn't work out. I feel like I am impossible to have a relationship with. I feel like I don't deserve a good man. I feel like I am going to be alone forever.

Where do I go from here?

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skyeconnelly
Jessica
Artist | Professional | Photography
United States
I am passionate about and inspired by all facets of photography. I don't want to just photograph one style; I want to capture all of it, from babies and children to nature, architecture, and the abstract. I always search for beauty in unexpected places.
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mrmd53 Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
Oh WOW!! I'm looking at your daughter..I can't believe it's been that long since we've talked!
I came by to wish you "Happy Birthday!!":rose:
..and now to say-you have such a lovely daughter-I wish I could revisit each of my three daughters at that age..:)
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kkart Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2013  Professional Photographer
Happy Birthday you :) 
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KeaponLaffin20 Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2013
Hey, just thought I'd write to see how you were doing. :)
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dreamsinstatic Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2012
Happy Birthday gorgeous :cake:
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skyeconnelly Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Professional Photographer
Why thank you so very much mister!! You are awesome!! :D
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dreamsinstatic Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2012
You're the awesome one :)
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mrmd53 Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
..and now it's time to say :rose:Happy Birthday Jessica!!:heart:!!
Drop me a line, let me know you're still alive!;p
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skyeconnelly Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Professional Photographer
Thank you very much I appreciate it!
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:iconmrmd53:
mrmd53 Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
Hi Jessica!!
I thought I'd drop by to say "Hi"!! :w00t:
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skyeconnelly Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2012  Professional Photographer
Hi! Hope things are well!
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Dani-the-Naiad Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
For you :) [link]
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Ana-D Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the fav =) I hope you'll visit my gallery again :blowkiss:
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:iconindependentlyconceal:
Hey thanks for the fav .. thanks a lot :hug:
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CanadianRy Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2012
Thank you very much for the :+fav: on my photo [link]
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TheDeckBrew Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the Fav.
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skyeconnelly Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2012  Professional Photographer
You bet!
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cloe-patra Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
thanks a lot for :+fav:! :)
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skyeconnelly Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2012  Professional Photographer
Absolutely!
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dove-51 Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
:iconthankyouplz: I really appreciate the :+fav: on "Winter Chickadee" :iconchickadeeplz: :iconhappysunplz:
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skyeconnelly Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2012  Professional Photographer
You're welcome!
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failkat Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2012   General Artist
thank you dearie:huggle:
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skyeconnelly Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2012  Professional Photographer
:tighthug:
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RoxiLolaphotography Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2012  Student Photographer
Your daughter is beautiful!
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skyeconnelly Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2012  Professional Photographer
Thank you so much! :aww:
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gnohz Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2012  Professional Photographer
Hi Jessica! :wave:
Thank you for faving City of lights! Appreciate it lots :)
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